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Gentle Signs of Healing

I admit, it was just a really emotional weekend for me. It was for a lot of my family too. My sister-in-law’s parents have been battling Covid, and her mom lost the battle last night, into the arms of our Heavenly Father. Please keep my brother and his family in prayers, this is a difficult and painful transition for all of them. My sister-in-law’s family has been part of our family for 30 years. Our parents all sang in a Gospel bluegrass band together, starting back in 1991.

But alas we can still praise our Heavenly Father. Carrie had a breakthrough last night with her kidney function. She began producing large amounts of urine last night and today. On my visit to see her today, she still retained a lot of fluid though. Her doctor thinks another round of dialysis may be in order just to help her kidneys handle the excess fluid.

The fluid is the main complicating factor right now in reducing her ventilator settings back down. After her last round of dialysis, she tolerated very low ventilator settings. So much so that they attempted to test her ability to breathe without the ventilator. She had a lot of anxiety, and struggled to breathe normally. Because of this, they decided to give her a few more days of rest before they made another attempt. Please pray that she heals enough this week that she can be removed from the ventilator and begin breathing on her own.

Yesterday I got to see Jeremiah on the ultrasound again. He’s getting so big now, 21 weeks. I thank God that he is still growing and thriving, completely unaware of all of the struggles surrounding him.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

It was a bittersweet weekend for sure. Covid is affecting so many people right now. Some very close to me, and many more in my family, blood and otherwise. It’s hard to think about life ever being normal again. It’s so very hard to step outside my comfort zone and create a life around this disease and the impact it has had on my family. I can only pray that all things are working together for the good of those who love Him, and like Job, we will be blessed beyond measure once we overcome this trial.

Please continue prayers for full healing for Carrie and Jeremiah. Please continue to pray for my other family members battling this disease as well, and for the comfort of those close to the family members we’ve already lost. Please continue to pray that I find rest and healing through God’s comfort, and that I draw ever closer to Him throughout this process.

Our family couldn’t get through this process without the support from all of you. I am honored to continue receiving cards, donations, prayers, and daily encouragement from so many of you. I thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart. I appreciate your willing spirits and how you’ve opened up your hearts to my family. God has answered so many of my prayers through all of you directly. Thank you.

Riding the Covid Roller Coaster

My visit to see Carrie today still just breaks my heart. She is stable, still with no complications. But she just isn’t improving today the way I’ve seen in the past few days. Her oxygen is fluctuating again, and her ventilator settings had to go back up.

I guess the nurses have a name for this – they call it riding the Covid roller coaster. Covid recovery isn’t linear, its more of an up and down kind of thing. We’ve already seen this with Carrie, she does very well for a few days, then plateaus for a few days. We seem to be in the second round of plateaus.

Again I went into her room to be by her bedside. All suited up in PPE, she didn’t open her eyes for me today. She did nod her head to my questions though. I asked her if she knew how much I loved her, and she nodded her head yes. I asked her if she remembered me coming yesterday, and again she nodded her head yes. I told her how much I was looking forward to the day she could come home.

I keep having to remind myself that we serve an awesome God who is healing Carrie every day, even on days that it doesn’t feel like it. I keep finding myself impatient with this process and praying that God will heal her instantly, but so far God hasn’t said yes. I, too, need more healing.

Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.

Isaiah 26:4

Carrie’s oxygen support varied between 60-70% today. Her ventilator pressure support (PEEP) is currently at a 10, though has been as low as a 7. The nurse tells me that the increase is mostly due to ensuring that Jeremiah is getting enough oxygen too. But they won’t attempt to test her readiness to come off the ventilator until her numbers come back down again.

Once again today, I asked the nurse to note in Carrie’s chart that I think it would be more helpful at their next attempt if I was present. The process is uncomfortable and feels a bit like you’re suffocating, with a tube down your throat. When they attempted it with Carrie yesterday, they said her anxiety was very high. Its one of the reasons they abandoned the attempt and didn’t end up extubating her. I think if I was there with her, she might do better. The nurse agreed, and I hope they call me.

Her kidneys do show some signs of healing, though they will continue dialysis a bit longer. She’s producing more urine, and doesn’t look like she’s retaining nearly as much fluid.

The nurse today was absolutely adorable about Jeremiah. She tried to do a doppler scan to hear his heartbeat. Of course we know already, Jeremiah doesn’t much show up for the doppler. So Carrie’s nurse went to go get the ultrasound machine, and got all excited to see him doing his usual somersaults. She told me, “You’re going to have your hands full, daddy.” I’ll take him any way he comes.

Please continue to pray for Carrie’s improvement. These plateau days make me nervous, I worry about complications, or that she may get worse before she gets better. Continue to pray for Jeremiah’s protection, and that he’ll continue growing healthy and staying strong. Pray above all that soon we will be able to come together again as a happy, healthy family.

Thank you for your prayers for me as well. I slept a full night last night – perhaps the first time that’s happened in weeks. Today I’ve eaten, showered, and even cleaned house a little. But I can tell you that I am worn out now.

And thank you for showering Carrie, Jeremiah, and me with love. There are so many of you sending cards, encouraging messages, and donations…some of you who I have never met. Your love is felt wide and strong, and I so appreciate your willingness to be the hands of God right now.

Nearly Breathing a Sigh of Relief

Whoa was yesterday emotional. Today has been far more celebratory though. God is answering prayers.

On my visit to the hospital today, I was again allowed into Carrie’s room. Nurse Ashley was off today, but Carrie’s nurse was still very good. Carrie roused slightly upon hearing my voice, and she struggled hard to open her big blue eyes and glance at my face. I again told her how much I loved her, and how proud I was of her.

The nurse gave me a great report on Carrie today. Today they began testing her to see how she would handle breathing on her own. She came very, very close to coming off the ventilator today. That was a complete shock to me – I had no idea they were going to try! I wish they would have called me and let me be there for that. Carrie was awake and answering questions by nodding her head. They did a doppler scan on Jeremiah while she was awake, and she heard his good strong heartbeat at 126 beats per minute.

Tonight I’m experiencing absolute joy in knowing that Carrie is continuing to heal, and that the end of this ventilator is in sight. There will still be a months-long road to recovery ahead, and further complications could stretch it even longer. She still will need more dialysis, and she will be on oxygen for quite a while once she comes off the ventilator. But now I have more confidence than ever that Carrie and Jeremiah are coming home to me. And I praise God for that.

God is hearing our prayers, and He is healing Carrie. Please keep praying that she heals with no further complications, and that her lungs, kidneys, and vital organ systems make a full recovery.

And once again, thank you all so much for your amazing prayers and support. Every day I receive encouraging messages, Bible verses, and notes and they all mean so very much to me. And once again, I express my gratitude to those of you who have provided financial contributions to help us as Carrie continues her recovery.

Sneaking in and Holding Hands

Yesterday at my visit to the hospital to see Carrie, I asked Nurse Ashley when she thought Carrie would be past the infectious stage of the disease. I didn’t ask to go into Carrie’s room. The nurse answered that Carrie would be in isolation until she was released from the hospital. That is Covid protocol. But Nurse Ashley knew what I wanted.

Today when I came to visit, Nurse Ashley was working in Carrie’s room. She saw me wave from the window, and came over to the door. Then she did something completely unexpected…she asked me if I wanted to come in and sit by Carrie. Dumbfounded, I nodded my head yes with big eyes and the total excitement of a little boy.

Another nurse came and helped me get on the gown, gloves, goggles, and a special mask. Once all suited up, they took me to her bedside. A chair waited for me there, but I didn’t sit. I got myself as close to her ear as I could and told her how much I loved her. I told her how much I missed her, and how very proud I was of her for how hard she was fighting. I told her how much I’d cuddle her when she gets home, like she loves so much. And I told her I was waiting right there beside her for her to heal and come home. I held her hand. I ran my fingers through her hair like she loves so much. And I put my hand over her belly to give Jeremiah some love too.

Under those goggles and masks and all of that personal protection equipment, I just wept. Nothing is worse today at all, Carrie is improving. But just maybe then I had a reality moment where I felt emotions that I was still fighting. I’m still trying to be strong for my wife. I’m still trying to pretend like its okay for her. And for a short time today as I stood by my wife’s bedside, wrapped in plastic like the Michelin man, it was okay for me to not be okay.

Carrie is doing well today. She didn’t see the great strides in improvement that she did yesterday, but her oxygen support level was lowered to 50%. Her pressure level remains at 8, though they had her on 7 for some time today. They told me that by the end of dialysis yesterday that she wasn’t tolerating it well, a sign they took to mean that she wasn’t in need of it at that time. They’ve decided to let her rest from the dialysis for today and tomorrow, and see what her kidneys can do on their own.

Jeremiah is doing just as good as ever. I had hoped to feel the little guy when I put my hand on Carrie’s tummy, but he might just be a bit small yet at almost 21 weeks. Or maybe he was taking a nap. I figure with all those somersaults and things he’s doing, he has to get tired sometime.

Carrie was also more active today. She opened her eyes a little and glanced my way for a moment, then fell back asleep. I’d like to know that she won’t remember any of this when she wakes up. But if she is conscious of anything going on now, I hope she knows I was right there beside her, loving on her. I think she’s fighting the drugs now, and I pray she continues to fight hard to heal.

Please pray for continued improvement and movement toward getting off the ventilator. It seems like the healing happens for two or three days, and then she rests for a few days before improvement begins again. Please continue to pray that her kidneys heal quickly and she won’t have to endure the awful dialysis machine much longer. Have you seen The Princess Bride? The dialysis machine is kind of like that thing they have in the Pit of Despair. Only some how, dialysis makes you better, not worse.

And please continue prayers for me. I could use some sleep. I could probably stand to be a little better about personal care at this point. And as the fear of losing Carrie and Jeremiah gently fades, I find myself feeling increasingly depleted.

Thank you all for the continued prayers, encouragement, and support. Know that I have so much gratitude and love for y’all. Know that I appreciate every prayer, kind word, card sent, or donation made in ways words can’t express. Y’all are increasingly becoming answers to my own prayers.

Prayers Answered. Healing Continues.

Carrie and Jeremiah are headed in the right direction. I just came home from the hospital a little while ago. I took a few moments to sit with my thoughts and bask in God’s glory, knowing that He is hearing our prayers.

Today when I went to visit, Nurse Ashley told me that they were able to bring Carrie’s oxygen supplementation back down. At the time I was at the hospital, Carrie had been titrated to 60% oxygen. They are planning on reducing it further, as Carrie is tolerating the lower oxygen levels well. Her saturation is still in the high 90s. What’s even more wonderful is that the ventilator pressure support has been lowered as well, down to an 8. I am breathing a small sigh of relief, that’s quite a bit of improvement today.

As I was at the hospital today, Carrie was on dialysis. Today is the third day of her second set of dialysis treatments, and its clear now that the fluid reduction is contributing to helping her lungs exchange oxygen better. Her urine output is already better, so we’re seeing some healing in the kidneys. Tomorrow they will take a break from dialysis and that will give us a better idea of how her kidneys are doing now. Chances aren’t great that her kidneys are functioning as well as they need to be in order to stop dialysis altogether at this point, but they are healing. And I’m still praying.

The greatest gift I received today is the picture above. When the nurse knew I was coming, she arranged for an ultrasound machine to be there that had the capability of printing out pictures. From the window I watched as they performed the ultrasound. Jeremiah, in his usual fashion, continued to bounce off the walls in momma’s tummy. It made getting a good, clear picture difficult. But the printout I got is no less precious. That’s my boy.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Jeremiah 29:11

Carrie’s nurse Ashley has been just the most amazing nurse for her. She plans ahead, she has all the details memorized. She can tell exactly what Carrie needs, and provides it right away. When I go in to visit, Nurse Ashley provides me a very detailed report on how Carrie is doing. She has all of the answers to my questions in her head, she didn’t have to look at the chart to provide a single answer. From IVs and medications to ventilator values and more, Nurse Ashley knew every last detail…exactly. I have full confidence that she is providing Carrie with the very best care.

I can’t help but sit here and feel blessed. Carrie isn’t out of the woods yet by far, but God is hearing our prayers. Carrie has had no more significant complications. She is healing in the normal progression as one would expect in this situation. Jeremiah is healthy and active. And surrounding the three of us is all of you reading this…you are the greatest support group. More than I could have asked for. I know I say this every day, but I can’t express how much your prayers, encouragement and support have meant to me. And I know it will mean even more to Carrie when she wakes up.

And thank you to those who have also contributed financially. Carrie, Jeremiah, and I have now received $1695 in support from you for helping with Carrie’s care and bills over the coming months. Every donation helps. We are so appreciative to be so blessed by you. From my heart, thank you.

Stability, and Deeper Reliance on God

Today was by far, a better day than yesterday. Carrie remains stable today, with some minor fluctuations in oxygen flow.

This morning I received a call from her doctor and we discussed some new medications. One he would like to try in particular is Dapsone. It’s a medication that’s long been used to treat leprosy patients, and he is seeing better results with it than Remdesvir or Ivermectin. Of course, it works better when administered in early stages of Covid, but he thought at this point it was worth a shot. I did some research on it, and gave my consent to give her the drug.

On the call, the doctor also mentioned that her oxygen saturation had dropped, and they increased her oxygen support back up to 100%. It put that sick feeling right back into the pit of my stomach. And I should have learned my lesson yesterday – call the nurse and get a report before I panic about anything this doctor says. Mind you, I think he is an excellent doctor. I think he’d do or prescribe anything if he thought it had a chance of helping Carrie. The problem really seems to be more of a communication issue between us.

I visited the hospital today to peer at Carrie through her window. I was able to get an accurate report from her amazing nurse, Ashley. They did in fact need to increase Carrie’s oxygen levels back to 100%. In that, it was a harder day. But in speaking with the nurse, her higher oxygen need is due to Carrie’s need for dialysis. They’re pumping so much fluid into her, but with her kidneys not working yet, it takes dialysis to remove that fluid from her tissues. The fluid surrounds her lungs and constricts her breathing more. Yesterday and today, they did dialysis and removed five liters of fluid between the two days. Nurse Ashley was confident that we would be able to successfully lower that oxygen level tomorrow with that fluid gone. I did see though that Carrie’s oxygen saturation was at 98%, yet again the highest I’ve seen it. I do believe her lungs are healing.

While I was at the hospital today, the OB nurse came in to check Jeremiah’s heartbeat. She had some trouble recording it on the doppler, so they pulled in an ultrasound machine. It was quite a blessing after yesterday’s debacle. Jeremiah has a good strong heartbeat, 129 beats per minute. He likes to do somersaults in momma’s tummy, making doppler readings difficult.

Today I received so many encouraging Bible verses and prayers by text, phone, messenger, and Facebook. I know God hears my prayers and I know that God is calling me closer to Him. Today I let my feelings guide me as to when to pray. When I felt hurt or worry, I lifted Carrie up in prayers again…calling out to our amazing God. He is bigger than all of this. He is in control of all of this. And I believe He can and will heal Carrie.

Thank you for all the prayers and support. Please keep the prayers coming. Some of you have even donated, for which I am so very grateful. Carrie and I have now received $650 from donations so far. All of you who read these posts, pray for us, send cards, and donate…I just have no words. You are amazing blessings from God. Thank you so very much.

Quite the Roller Coaster Ride Today

I nearly had a heart attack this morning when the doctor called. He told me that Jeremiah was no longer viable. For a couple hours, I cried, I was angry, I prayed, and then just went numb. I called the nurse to find out what happened. The nurse wasn’t available, but they reassured me she would call right back.

It seemed like I waited for that phone call for hours. I can’t tell you how much time passed, but I finally called again and got an answer.

Jeremiah is okay. He’s doing just fine. The doctor had misread the chart. Jeremiah is viable, alive and doing well. He’s just not viable outside the womb at 20 weeks. That was the confusion on the chart. In fact, they did another ultrasound today, which they’ve been routinely doing every three days.

Needless to say, I bowed down and thanked the Lord that Jeremiah is still with us. And my mood has much improved this evening.

Carrie is stable, and there are no new complications today. Today they moved her into a different room in the ICU. The hospital is so busy right now, that they are having to put two patients in a room instead of one. Up until this point, Carrie has been in a room by herself. Understanding how busy they are, I can understand how a doctor could make such a mistake when scanning through Carrie’s chart. But I beg for your prayers that the doctors and nurses are able to care for all those patients. And care for them well.

As far as her oxygen goes, her saturation remains high. When they moved her to the new room, the process of moving her caused her saturation levels to dip slightly. They increased her oxygen support back up to 80% for a bit, then they’re bringing it back down. Her ventilator pressure support is still at 12. We’re looking for a magic number below 8. It looks like the dialysis is helping that some, as it pulls the fluids out from around her lungs. She will resume dialysis today, most likely late this evening.

After the little doctor dilemma this morning, my emotions are finally less intense. I’m mentally exhausted from the little trip my mind took. But physically I am doing well. Our generous neighbors have brought so much wonderful food. Your prayers and encouragement has lifted my spirit. Thank you all so very much.

Please keep praying, prayer warriors. This is going to be a long battle, and we can’t let the devil get a foothold.

Sunday Update – Carrie & Jeremiah

I just got home from the hospital from visiting Carrie. She remains stable with not much change from yesterday. At the time I left, they were working on titrating her oxygen down. Her oxygen has fluctuated a bit over the last few days – between 55% and 75%. This has a lot to do with lowering her ventilator pressure support. As they lower the pressure, they typically need to increase the oxygen support to maintain her blood oxygen saturation. As I left the hospital today, she was on 70% oxygen support and had a pressure support level of 12. I am impatient to see more results faster, but I have to remind myself that just four days ago she was at 100% and 20.

I don’t have a lot of information on her kidneys and dialysis, but I was of course not able to talk to her kidney doctor over the weekend. The nurse did tell me that Carrie would be receiving another round of dialysis tomorrow, and that her kidneys were not there yet. We expected that, though I sure prayed for improved kidney function. I have my suspicions that as they now slowly take her off the Covid-related meds, her kidneys might improve faster.

Jeremiah continues to hold his own. There is kicking and moving and still a good heart rate. I am continually frustrated that the reports aren’t more detailed about Jeremiah, but that’s due to the fact that ICU day nurses aren’t performing those tests – they’re handled by the Labor & Delivery night nurses.

Yes, I’m frustrated and discouraged that this process isn’t going faster. I have a greater longing to hold my wife and have long conversations with her than I did just days ago. I thought I already loved my wife with all my heart, but it turns out my heart had plenty of room for more love for her.

I can’t go into her hospital room at all. I can stand outside her closed door and look through the window. I can see that her heart rate, oxygen saturation, respiration rate, and blood pressure are all good. I can see her skin tones and know that they’re a normal color. I can talk to the nurse and get updates on how she’s doing. But I can’t hug her, hold her hand, or stroke her hair in the way she loves so very much. I can’t tell her that I’m proud of her for fighting so hard, or that it’s all going to be okay. I’m really struggling with patience and knowing that Carrie will heal in God’s timing. And my mind goes to the worst that maybe she won’t heal at all, and struggle with the idea that God still has a plan if that happens. And as I type this, I’m changing out yet another keyboard I’ve shorted out from all these damn tears.

I love my wife and I love my son. I would trade them for nothing in this world. And while today may be just an extra emotional day, it means that logically I can see that my emotions aren’t matching reality.

Truth: Carrie is stable, Jeremiah is healthy, and we are achieving the normal progression of healing for this disease.

Emotions: I’m about to lose my wife. I am a failing husband who didn’t protect her and, I put her life in grave jeopardy. (Be gone, Devil!)The struggle is real with the emotions today though. Just all over the place. Its a fight to keep to the truth over the emotions. Its a fight to cling to God more than flesh.

I simply don’t have the donation site ready for everyone yet. Between time constraints and exhaustive emotions, I’m still working on it. I so very much appreciate that so many of you have offered to donate. I’m going to use PayPal, Venmo, and Zelle for donations. I already have all of those accounts, and donations are all fee free. I will of course include a mailing address for those wishing to mail a check; I completely understand that. I will set it up as a blog site with continued updates, and continue posting them to Facebook.

I can’t end one of these updates without expressing my enormous gratitude for all of you who have prayed, encouraged, and supported my family through this struggle. Near or far, family or stranger, so many of you have blessed my heart in so many ways. I am continually amazed by how many have showed up in our time of need. All of you are family to me now. You have encouraged me to strive to grow through this trial in life, and picked me up every time I fell. I love and appreciate you all so much.

Don’t forget – I would love to have you all shower Carrie with get well cards for her when she wakes up. If you can, please send her a card of your love, support, and prayers for her. If you don’t have our mailing address, send me a private message and I will give it to you.

Update on Carrie for Saturday, August 14th

Today was another day of stability, and still yet some improvements. Her breathing remains stable and her oxygen saturation was excellent today – as high as I’ve seen it yet. Today they attempted to lower her ventilator pressure support from 15 to 10, but Carrie didn’t tolerate that huge change, and they had to go back up some. Her day shift nurse told me that they put her back at 15, with the intent of lowering it more slowly. On this evening’s nurse update call, I inquired about her current pressure support and she said she didn’t know exactly, as the respiratory therapist had just left Carrie’s room. Her nurse didn’t have that information yet, so that will likely be an update for tomorrow morning. But Carrie is still on 55% oxygen support now, which is what we expected as they attempt to reduce the pressure support.

Her dialysis is going well, and the fluid that they are removing from her is helping take extra pressure off her lungs. Please pray that as they finish dialysis today that her kidneys will begin to heal quickly and her lung function will continue to improve.

They did another doppler scan of Jeremiah today. His heart rate was 130 beats per minute, and from what I understand that is perfectly within normal limits for 20 weeks. There is still no information now that gives us any indication that he is not still healthy and growing.

A great praise report today though, Mom is home from the hospital and she is doing well. She will be on oxygen for some time, and resting for a lot longer. But mom is past the bulk of the danger. Now that she is home and can get some real rest, she is requesting that calls and texts to her be kept to a minimum for a few days. She is extremely exhausted yet, and will likely spend a lot of time resting in coming days. She too will have quite a recovery before getting back to normal.

Last night I mentioned the GoFundMe for Carrie, and I thank all of you for the valuable advice and encouragement. So many of you have indicated that you would love to support us financially, and I am so humbled and grateful for your support. Much of the advice that I received was to search for alternatives to crowdfunding, as most take high percentages of the donations. I believe I have a better system to take donations, but it will take me another day to set it up. I’ll give more info on it tomorrow with a link for those of you who wish to contribute.

Friends and family, please continue to pray for all of us, including me. I am tired but can’t sleep. I have little more attention and focus on anything other than getting Carrie through right now. Your calls, texts, encouragement, prayers, and support are just exactly what I prayed for, and desperately need right now. Y’all are amazing.

Day Four: August 13th

Hello friends and family, I have more good news on Carrie today.

There was not much that took place today, and I’m so incredibly grateful for that. They have lowered her ventilator settings once again. They are maintaining her at 55% oxygen support, and have reduced her ventilator pressure support from 18 down to 15. This is consistent with what the nurse told me yesterday, that they would attempt to lower the pressure by 2-4 points per day as Carrie tolerates it. Her oxygen saturation is remaining stable, and she is improving exactly as we had hoped and prayed.

They did put her on dialysis yesterday, and were able to take a liter of fluid out of her. They are continuing dialysis today, and will tomorrow as well. On Sunday, they will recheck her blood kidney values to evaluate how her kidneys are doing and determine if they need to continue dialysis or not. There’s a chance that they may not need to do more dialysis after Sunday, but the kidney doctor was clear that kidneys heal slowly. She may need to be on dialysis for longer than just a few days.

Jeremiah continues to do well on daily monitoring. That kid is a little trooper for sure. Today, he is at 20 weeks.

Mom has seen some great improvement in the last 24 hours. There was talk of releasing her from the hospital today, but it looks like it will more realistically be tomorrow that she gets to come home. She and Carrie both will have a long road to recovery once they get home. Please continue prayers for full healing.

I would love to have you all shower Carrie with get well cards for her when she wakes up. If you can, please send her a card of your love, support, and prayers for her. If you don’t have our mailing address, send me a private message and I will give it to you.

Today what’s on my heart is looking to the future, for Carrie and Jeremiah. Once they come home, Carrie will need months of rehabilitation before she can function normally again. I’d guess that by the time she’s really up and on her feet again, it’ll be about the time that Jeremiah is born, if not longer. And of course, I will be her primary caregiver. Please pray for God’s provision for our family as I will have to cut back my work schedule, and we will have extensive medical bills and expenses as we all get this resolved, and Carrie and Mom healed.

I am considering setting up a GoFundMe account for Carrie, and I wanted to put it out there for consideration. On one hand, I have never had to ask for financial help like that before. On the other hand, any help we received would reduce the stress of paying bills and free me up to better attend to Carrie and Jeremiah. I certainly don’t want to offend anyone, so I’m prayerfully asking for your wisdom and guidance on what to do.

I am continually so amazed at the prayers and support we’ve received from all of you. My heart hurts for Carrie, but you all have shown amazing comfort and support through your prayers and encouraging words. Carrie has a huge, massive, incredible number of people praying for her. Many churches are praying. People on all ends of this country are praying. Complete strangers are praying. People in other countries are praying. And I am so very grateful for each and every one of you who are, whether I know you or not. Here in Texas we say, y’all done showed up in a huge way. Thank you all so very much for your continued prayers and support.